Dear Hyukjae

Today's been a heavy and depressing day. There's been so many news pieces coming out about SJ from their press conference that made me feel down... So this photo totally came as a pleasant surprise. Everything about it, from your smile, to your eyes we can make out from behind your glasses, Sungmin looking at you that way - I just want to freeze that moment. Can you stay happy like this forever? Sometimes I wish I could just take all the bad moments and erase them from your mind, just so you'll always be happy and smiling.

Do you even have any idea how wonderful and infectious your smile is? I don't care if its gummy or if it makes you get eye wrinkles. Your smile is genuine, true, pure and free of pretenses. In Super Show, one of the moments I treasure the most (if not the most) wasn't the time you stood on top of the stairs in front of us, not even a foot apart. You stood there and reached out for a fan's Happy Birthday Hyuk sunglasses, but you know what? I wish you hadn't, because I wish I could've seen your eyes. I got to touch you, at last, but that moment cannot compare to the time you smiled at me (a big, genuine gummy smile) for a few seconds, which to me, seemed a lifetime. It was 5 seconds; I counted from the fancam, you were more than 5 meters away, you weren't holding my hand, but your smile was enough to make it my favorite moment. I'm blabbering right now, but I just felt this urge to blog about your smile.